I'm learning to love Yoga on my Long Run Days. Monday's long run was a shock. Ran over 13 miles and I didn't get a medal. There was noone at my home with a carton of chocolate milk. And there was noone cheering for me as I ran down Rosecrans & over the Ingraham bridge.
Then Tuesday I did my hills running from PB up to Mt Soledad and back hoping for an epic selfie with the ocean in the background and weeeelllll - FOG said no.
Wednesday, I returned to Performance 360, my gym that I took a sabbatical from for my UltraTraining to do their Kettlebell Core as a Drop In. Let me tell you, with KB Core being my favourite class, I noticed a difference not in my endurance or my stamina during class - moreso in my strength, as most of my training is shifted to prep me for the 50k. It's not something that necessarily bothers me, rather it's just something I noticed and had to remind myself that this is all just another thing on my journey towards achieving this goal.
I woke up Thursday feeling a bit under the weather and ended up having to skip on my Spin Class, but Friday I woke up and did Cowles Mtn to get some trails in, followed by Beach Bootcamp Plyo and HIIT training on Saturday.
One thing that happened this week that noone told me would, or maybe it's something noone talks about is the emotional toll this week took. Out of nowhere I found myself not necessarily hitting a wall or anything, rather just really emotional about the entire process. I'm normally good at proving other people wrong when I say I want to do something but they question my ability and capacity to do so. This time though I'm surrounded by people who believe and push me and are being a part of my journey and all I can think about this week is "What if I CAN'T do it? What if I work so hard at this and fail?" I'm not having doubts that I can do it - I know I'm fully capable of it, but it's more a fear of letting everyone and myself down, should something happen. Is this normal? Am I tripping? I don't know. Who am I doing this for anyway? Oh yeah MYSELF.
BEST NEWS EVER: I posted on IG about my weight loss transformation and my 50k Ultra Training, and added that at some point after the 50k, I would love to run with Theo Rossi. Theo is an avid runner and one of my favourite actors, having portrayed Juice on Sons of Anarchy and Shades in Luke Cage. I jokingly said one of my friends has to have a connection to him to make it happen. Less than an hour later, this man that I admire and look up to reaches out via IG, saying he is open to the idea and let's plan to run together next time we're in the same city. Then goes on to congratulate me on my journey thus far. This simple act on his part gave me an even bigger respect for him and made my year knowing I have something so awesome to look forward to.
Also, in MUSIC NEWS. Monday found me back in studio with Brian Rumsey recording "Something Good" for my upcoming EP, DEGLOVED. The song is great, I love the direction and I'm glad that I went with this song rather than some of the darker songs I was throwing around. The sexual assault I went through that influenced the songs on this EP also gave life to "Something Good" a song about hope and a new outlook on life and on the people who love you through the pain.
"I know something good is gonna come out of this. My light will shine through his darkest"
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| Beautiful Ocean View in the Background from Atop Mount Soledad |
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