Unpopular Opinion below. You've been warned.
At my heaviest, I let myself get to 430+ lbs. I've heard people say it's possible to love yourself in any body, but for me that wasn't the case. For me that wasn't my body, it seemed foreign to me.
You see, what serves the individual - doesn't always serve the masses. I had to accept that I had come to hold so much anger, resentment and lack of love for who I had become, in order to let myself become the person I am becoming.
I say becoming because I'm still not happy. I'm 190 & working towards 127. Just kidding, working towards 185lbs, but I'm not happy with my 190. My body composition & extra skin and flappy wappy doesn't paint a picture of the body I see for myself as a 39yr old best version of myself.
I'm here to tell you that when people make you feel guilty & tell you that you SHOULD love your body where it's at - it's ok to say NO, I DON'T! It's ok to be driven to change. You don't HAVE to love your body where it's at. We live in this body accepting society, but don't allow others to make you feel bad about not loving and accepting and living into a body you don't love. If I had let that happen, I'd most definitely be well over 500lbs or dead right now.
I'm all for body acceptance, but let ME be the one to decide for myself what I'm willing to accept.
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| Majority of my meals are provided by Clean & Colorful Kitchen, San Diego |
