Reach Out - Get Help / Be Help

It's been a year. June 7, 2017 I was sitting in my friend Blaise's backyard and sang a song to him I had recently started work on. He grabbed his guitar and played some chords while I struggled to keep my composure singing those words to Free Me. I opened up and told him about having been raped a few months earlier. Told him about being afraid to go running by myself, about hardly leaving my house unless it was to go to the gym, about the nightmares that were keeping me from getting any sleep, about freaking out in public places and in being completely open told my best friend I had contemplated taking my life. I opened up about the fact that I was seeing a therapist to come to terms with what happened. And Blaise, my best friend grabbed his guitar and played and let me sing to him what I was feeling. He played the chorus over and over and sang my words with me.
"I'm begging you to free me cos noone really needs me
My future lay before me, but my past still controls me"

This past year has been one of rebirth, of growth, of finding a new way to be me. This past year has been one of many changes and that moment that inspired this song is one that will forever be a part of my journey albeit in the grand scheme of things will not go down as one of big events in my life. I know HE made me for good things. This was a terrible event but it forms a part of my history and will shape the good things of my future.
So when I say reach out if you need help or reach out to see if anyone needs help, I'm saying it because people did reach out to me.
Had my Pastor Kate not asked me why I was acting so strange I would never had gotten the help I needed.
Recording new music is something I never wanted to go back to doing but I feel a need to share this song with you all. Especially because of what my boy Brandon from 5nSlime was able to bring to the track.

If you need help, reach out.
If you suspect someone needs help, reach out.
You'll never know who you may be saving.
And as for me - I've never been happier
I'm dealing with it, but I'm HERE to deal with it